I lit a fire that wouldn't go out…
I just watched smart people. I must stop watching US indie dramas, particularly ones set around dysfunctional families and books. It makes me yearn for something I’ll never have in the meanest of ways.
There seems to be some sort of a party going on downstairs in my house. I’m in my room downloading movies. I did want to have a bath but noisy people are ruining that vie somewhat. Not drinking makes me no fun. I can’t wait for this medication to level out and take my moods with it.
Why do I think of time spent with others as somehow more valid, like if you’re with someone else then you’re doing something just by hanging out ? Also, I have recently noticed that the older I get, the more I lack direction. Am I doing this all the wrong way round I wonder ?